letting go

I talked about letting go a little here.

I just have to say, there is so much that I let go of on a daily basis. I let go of situations I can't change or impact. When I start worrying, dwelling or arguing about a situation/belief - that's when I remember - oh yeah - I gotta let this one go.

I let go so I have time and energy to appreciate what I do have.

I stop trying to figure out why some things are the way they are.

I'm not severing ties with some of these relationships or situations, but I am taking a step back.

There is a ton of beauty out there. I'm glad I'm able to appreciate it.

PS. I can sit back and try and figure out - why didn't I get this before now? There isn't an answer to that...I can just be grateful that I figured it out with lots of help from various friends, writers, etc.

Worrying vs. Being Prepared

I'm going to date myself by quoting the Violent Femmes...

People worry
what are they worrin about today
seems like there's a good reason
to worry worry worry
I'd sit around listening to your story
if I wasn't in such a hurry hurry hurry
-Violent Femmes - Confessions



I picked up a copy of the "Meditations for Women Who Do Too Much" book as suggested by Julieann. There are some interesting thoughts. Some of it makes no sense - but I believe that's part of the whole meditation concept.

One of the entries dealt with worry - and how it is pointless. Typically, the things we worry about never come to fruition, so why worry about them? When sorrow happens, who can say that it was helpful to worry about it beforehand?

Needless to say, I disagree that worrying is pointless.

It should come as no surprise to my readers or friends that I worry. A lot.

I do come by it honestly - one in a long line of worriers.

A few weeks ago, my mother called in terror that we had been flooded (I'm sure that's not the correct English phrase, btw). There were lots of storms here in the midwest, and I'm sure there were people whose homes were flooded. Maybe they were two states over, but there was a lot of damage. Surprisingly, later that week, my grandmother (her mother) called with the same concern. Part of me thinks that both my mother and grandmother spend too much time watching the weather channel - another part of me knows that they just like to worry.

I agree that some worrying is pointless. Worrying about how your daughter/eldest granddaughter may or may not have a flooded basement is pretty pointless. To be fair, perhaps they worry about me since they know I can take care of myself.

There is a fine line between being prepared and worrying. When tragedy strikes (small or large tragedies) people typically say that they didn't see it coming. And truthfully, it doesn't make sense to worry about the worst case scenario - close family members dying, satellites falling from the sky, etc. Because the odds are that it will probably not happen (the satellites falling from the sky - close family members will die someday. It's just a matter of when).

Personally, I just can't seem to find that line. To separate the things that it's productive for me to worry about, and the things I can let go.

Does it make sense to be concerned about whether or not my kids will have a nap if we go to a family gathering on Sunday? Yes, because my kids without a nap can get angry and throw tantrums (and are just difficult to deal with. Trust me on this one).

But there are other dilemmas - whether or not some family members or friends will be at a gathering - if the friends who dislike one another will put up with each other. Will there be enough food? Will there be enough beer? Will there be food for the vegetarians?

And am I just being prepared by thinking about this beforehand, or am I worrying and possibly enabling?

What will be will be. I keep telling myself that, and sometimes I believe it.

Sometimes I actually find comfort in the prayer of serenity - God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change...I find comfort in it despite the fact that I'm not sure if I believe in God or even a higher power.

Sometimes it's not a great deal of help - but at times it does remind me to separate things into what I can control and what I can't.