I swear, I was never a huge Dave Matthews Band fan, but it was on all the time during my years in college. Hearing the songs from the mid-90s albums really takes me back. The song Too much was on this album, Crash.
There really appears to be a correlation there. Perhaps it's that I'm not good at taking a break (at all), and that even when I set boundaries, I still feel guilty about saying no. sigh.
My kids are missing the birthday party of a friend this weekend, and I feel guilty about that. Even though we had plans, even though it's really okay when I think about it logically.
It is hard to be a mom, a wife, a friend, a family member and work full time. Not to mention the things I want to do outside of my relationships.
Some days I feel like I have balance, and other times I just can't find it. I keep trying to prioritize, and some days that works.
Fortunately, I just keep looking at what I'm doing, and think what can I let go of. What can I stop doing. And there are always things there. I keep thinking this adult thing, this mom thing will be effortless, that I'll be able to do everything I want to. And it's just not possible.